Insanity Suits My Personality

RIP EYE-AN

2007-07-03T08:52:00.000-07:00

Ian...I'll remember you forever.

Grade 9 Drama...history was made. :)

You were a great guy who always had a loving smile.

You will be missed.

what i would say to mandy...or emma...or mandy...or emma....or emma

2007-06-20T05:58:00.000-07:00

*note* I changed the title of this post to make emma happy...i dont know that she realized it wouldn't be a good thing if i said that to her...BUT whatever keeps her happy. :P

This Is All I Have To Say Right Now

2007-06-11T13:36:00.000-07:00

RIP Neil.

2007-05-26T04:44:00.001-07:00

Peanut Butter

2007-05-12T14:51:00.000-07:00

Courteney says:
i never get to be goofy anymore
Courteney says:
i'm a grown up
Eric says:
man
Eric says:
even when me and heather are on our own
Eric says:
i doubt we'll act mature
Eric says:
i can just see it now
Eric says:
i'll walk into her room half naked .... " OMG ...know what i just noticed .... pea nut ... BUTT er .... BUTT heather ... BUTT HAHAHAH !"
Courteney says:
LOL
Eric says:
something dumb like that
Courteney says:
actually that word breaks into three funny words
Courteney says:
pee
Courteney says:
nut
Courteney says:
butt
Courteney says:
errrrr
Eric says:
hahahah
Eric says:
yeeeah
Eric says:
Baby when your gone ......
Courteney says:
even food dont taste no good
Eric says:
like...
Eric says:
peanut buutter
Eric says:
Peanuttedbutter
Eric says:
pre nutted butter
Courteney says:
lol
Courteney says:
we put the nuts in your butter BEFORE selling it to you
Eric says:
No extra charge.
Courteney says:
its free
Courteney says:
well almost
Courteney says:
for you today almost free
Eric says:
*some assembly required
*batteries not inclueded
Courteney says:
only 17 AAA batteries needed for ever serving
Courteney says:
*we can not be held responsible for the damage caused by eating battteries*
Eric says:
hahahahaha
Eric says:
thats when the same company sells an
Eric says:
"antacid"
Eric says:
man ....
Eric says:
do you think
Eric says:
you could use
Eric says:
recharagable batteries?
Courteney says:
ok i am never going to look at peanut butter the same way again
Eric says:
me either...
Courteney says:
dont spread it around ok?
Eric says:
so not spreadably like peanutbutter
Eric says:
i wont.
Courteney says:
lol...only smooth peanut butter is spread. crunchy munches the bread up
Eric says:
that and batteries....
Courteney says:
they are very crunchy
Courteney says:
"and call to in the next three years and we'll give you a FREE GUN!"
Eric says:
but act soon
Eric says:
suupplies limited to the last 3 callers.
Courteney says:
in a 254 hour period of time
Eric says:
im odd
Courteney says:
me too

Drowning Slowly...

2007-05-10T14:31:00.000-07:00

If anyone gets the title...I will be extrememly impressed.

Fellow Canadian: I Salute You

2007-05-08T08:59:00.000-07:00

Whichever Canadian climbed up into the roof of a gaziboo in Hyde Park and stuck a Canada sticker there...good on ya!

P.S. The title of this post is dedicated to Heather Maine!

Yeah...Pop dosn't look so good anymore.

2007-04-14T06:35:00.000-07:00

Phenylalanine: (fen-l-al-uh-neen)
C9H11NO2

One of the amino acids which the body cannot manufacture itself, but must acquire from food.
It is abundant in meats, cheese and skim milk.
Phenylalanine is a precursor of tyrosine and together they lead to the formation of thyroxin or thyroid hormone and of adrenaline and noradrenaline which is converted into a neurotransmitter, a brain chemical which transmits nerve impulses.
This neurotransmitter is used by the brain to manufacture noradrenaline which promotes mental alertness, memory, elevates mood and suppresses the appetite very effectively.
Along with another amino acid, tryptophan, phenylalanine governs the release of an intestinal hormone called cholecystokinin.
Overuse of phenylalanine supplements can cause anxiety, headaches and hypertension and are contraindicated for pregnant woman, those who suffer from anxiety attacks, high blood pressure, PKU, pigmented melanoma or anyone taking an anti-depressant containing monoamine oxidase inhibitors.

Phenylketonuria:
The genetic disorder phenylketonuria (PKU) is an inability to metabolise phenylalanine. Individuals with this disorder are known as "phenylketonurics", and must abstain from consumption of phenylalanine. This also holds true for pregnant women with hyperphenylalanine (high levels of phenylalanine in blood) because they will not properly metabolise the amino acid phenylalanine.
Phenylalanine is present in many sugarless gums, Monster Munch crisps, sugarless soft drinks (such as Diet Coke and Diet Pepsi), Lipton Diet Mixberry Green Tea, Icebreakers Mints, and a number of other food products, all of which must be labelled: "Phenylketonurics: Contains phenylalanine."
It's important to realize that phenylalanine itself is not present in the food. Rather, the artificial sweetener aspartame is present.

Aspartame:
This sweetener is marketed under a number of trademark names, such as Equal, NutraSweet, and Canderel, and is an ingredient of approximately 6,000 consumer foods and beverages sold worldwide.
It is 150-200 times sweeter than sugar, originally found in asparagus and other vegetables.
Aspartame has been the subject of controversy regarding its safety and the circumstances of its approval by the American FDA and European FSA.
Some studies have recommended further investigation into connections between aspartame and negative effects such as headaches, brain tumours, brain lesions, and lymphoma.

Methanol:

The methanol (in aspartame) is absorbed and converted to formaldehyde in the body. Formaldehyde is known to cause damage to the immune system, nervous system, and irreversible genetic damage at very low-level, long-term exposure.
Methanol breaks down into formic acid and formaldehyde in the body. Formaldehyde is a deadly neurotoxin.
An EPA assessment of methanol states that methanol "is considered a cumulative poison due to the low rate of excretion once it is absorbed. In the body, methanol is oxidized to formaldehyde and formic acid; both of these metabolites are toxic."
The recommend a limit of consumption of 7.8 mg/day. A one-litre (approx. 1 quart) aspartame-sweetened beverage contains about 56 mg of methanol. Heavy users of aspartame-containing products consume as much as 250 mg of methanol daily or 32 times the EPA limit.

Before aspartame was approved in beverages (1983) the National Soft Drink Association created a THIRTY PAGE PROTEST (that was later read into the Congressional Record) noting that aspartame was NOT stable, and could actually make the unwary user FATTER! FACT: The NSDA has changed its mind... and now says that aspartame is SAFE STUFF!

The Ladies of Cameron Crowe

2007-04-12T10:51:00.000-07:00

Cameron Crowe manages to make the most beautiful souls in his female chatacters. My three faves...

Miss Penny Lane aka Lady Goodman (Kate Hudson): The beautiful anti-heroine of Almost Famous...I idolize this character for some bizzare reason. She truly is wonderful.

Sofia Serrano (Penelope Cruz): The beautiful fantasy woman in Vanilla Sky. She is just so easy going and mysterious...she reminds me of Amanda.

Claire Colburn (Kirsten Dunst): The know it all stewardess from Elizabeth town...just the energy that she makes eminate from the screen...stunning.

Thats all for now...I'll probably elaborate later.

Travelllllll

2007-03-24T00:16:00.000-07:00

new blog for trip www.wherehasthecalmgone.blogspot.com

Night

2007-02-01T21:27:00.000-08:00

I lay awake watching the moon this morning. No stars. One of those nights when all you can see is darkness and the tentative light of the moon.

Looking around my room it seems strange that I can see more stars inside then out. The glowing stars on my ceiling appear fuzzy and look like they are moving as they fade into plastic once more.

I touch the star on my neck. For a second I can not remember where the second, older star was left--and then I recall shoving it into the pocket of my favourite jeans. The jeans with grass stains and dirt pressed into them from a night in the forest, and with wax near the knee that reminds me of when I was physically connected with two people whom I love. One that I know well (maybe better than myself) and one that I am just getting to know and more likely than not will never fully know. I am glad that the first and older star is with my favourite, well worn jeans.

A month ago that star never left my neck but now the newer star replaces it. I am not ready to completely give up the old star or the person who wore it, but I know longer need to keep it so near to my skin. They can stay shoved into the back pocket of my old jeans until I need to pull them out again and feel the comfort of a time that isn’t real anymore.

This new star is lighter than the old star--if my hand didn’t automatically touch it so often I could forget it was there. Like I do with the four silver rings on my fingers--the only time I notice them is when I do not wear them.

I realize my new star is the only jewellery that I wear that is not from the same store. I think about whether I like this or not and decide that I do.

The old star is a reminder of the past and the new one is the promise a future and of a change.
The moon is still glowing and I hope it’s going to be one of those days when you can still see it because the sky is so clear. I always find it reassuring that, even though the sun is shining, the night is still lurking, merely disguising itself in tones of silver and white to compliment the blues and yellows of day.

"AUGHHH! MY EYES! AUGHHH!"-Nick Cage

2007-01-21T21:10:00.000-08:00

"killing me wont bring back your damn honey!"

"oh but i know it will"

*CRACK*

the thing is...we're supposed to be feeling bad for nick cage at that point but really i'm like:

if i was in a pagen community and figured out a plot to lure nick cage there and do away with him...i'd take advantage of that situation too...they cannot be blamed.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e6i2WRreARo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YiV2BUlFzk8

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOpsbAUEe90&NR

Graydon's Shroomed Out Thoughts

2007-01-11T01:25:00.000-08:00

Questions are what make us (humans) different.

The whole key to everything is knowledge.

Everything would be better in the woods with a bunch of people.

5 minutes is a long time, what do you think your life would be like if you just ate when you needed to and just spent the rest of your time in yourself thinking, how fast do you think when you're waiting for something?

Some final words?

2006-12-29T02:10:00.000-08:00

A new poem...I am amazed...believe me I am. But I did it...and I dont think it's half bad...and I understand it...even if no one else will!

may i have some final words? no.

what if it all means something?
i doubt that even that would mean a thing.

are we all so hopeless? no.

i have felt so many kisses
that after awhile they started to feel
like tears of joy:
nice but so unneeded and useless.
being unemotional always ends up being emotional.
what a waste of my [un]precious time.

some things aren’t certain? no.
nothing is certain? no.
all things are certain? no.
are we certain? no.
is this certain? no.
BUT ARE YOU CERTAIN? certainly.
i remember when certainty was comforting
instead of suffocating.

this decision
could be the death of me
[or of you if the person i’m thinking of
has anything to say about
this matter…]
OH PLEASE!
don’t tell me that it doesn’t matter.

set me free from this
before i do.
fuck this phase…
why not? no.
why not? no.
you have ALREADY fucked
up everything else.
including this
now let it
GO!
…no.
then I will.
…no!

what is it all means something?
sometimes i pray to God that that’s not true…

hypocrisy at it’s greatest? no.

so you hate loving me? no.
admit it…and add another regret
to the long list that you keep.
another secret to hide from…
you know who
i’m talking about.

you’re not listening again!
i hate you and i love you
sound the same to your ears.
it’s sad that in this place i’m in
screaming i hate you
is so much more satisfying than
whispering i love you.

I HATE YOU!
but oh, how i love you!
you never did leave me satisfied.

and all of them
they seem to feel the need to say that
i’m wonderful.
wonder fills me.
i am full of wonder.
i am wonder full.
but i will never be
wonderful.
because you…
you’re wonderful.
and i am NOTHING like you.

and all you have for me
are blank stares
and a voice that tells me
i am nothing special to you..
i dare you…
make me cry…
make me CARE!

do you cry? no.
do you care? no.
do you hurt? no.
will it hurt? no.
why don’t you set me free? i am wonderful.
i remember when saying i love you was a compliment
instead of an insult.

what if it all means something?
an endless abyss of meaning…

is no one else afraid? no.

i’m contagious.
that’s why we had to be
sep-a-rate-ed.
it’s the only logical explanation
except for…there are two wooden boxes there.

should i take you with me? no.
do you want to come with me? no.
will you come with me? no.
can you come with me? no.
WHY CANT WE BE TOGETHER? you are contagious.
i remember when being right made me proud
instead of making me want to hurt…something.

NO!

there are two wooden boxes
there.
it’s not that far
it’s not that far
it’s not that far

it’s just not close.
closer…
closer…
closer…

even as this box is sealed with nails

i love you.

and just for the record:
i do think i can tell
heaven from hell…
all i need to do is
take a GOD DAMN
look around!
I WISH YOU WERE HERE.

how i wish you were here.

Pussy Anyone?

2006-12-29T00:07:00.000-08:00

The really sad part about my rant about the Pussycat Dolls is that I really enjoy listening to them. And I enjoy listening to anything featuring Timberland...he has a really cool voice. And that is my pathetic statment of the night.

What an IDEA!

2006-12-28T22:33:00.000-08:00

And this, ladies and gentlemen, is how I will make my millions!

And I simply CANNOT express it...I simply cannot.

2006-12-27T17:29:00.000-08:00

Lately no matter how hard I try I cannot seem to express anything I'm feeling through words. Which really kind of sucks because I dont think I've ever felt quite so conflicted in my life. Things just seem to be spiraling out of my control...which could be either a good thing or a bad thing. I'm not sure which yet.

Nabil is away at the fish farms. Eric is in Quebec. Ali is home for the moment but her departure is quickly approaching, not to mention the fact that she has yet another C name in her life distracting her. Amanda may come home for a few days before she is off to Ireland (lucky girl). I am really missing Eric...I just liked having him around...more than I can really explain. Ali is simply wonderful, I have so much love for her but our lives are going to quickly go seperate ways...at least thats how I'm feeling. It's not that we wont still be friends, because I honestly think we will be, but I do think we're going to be further apart then we are now.

I need someone to run away with. I need someone to start a Bohemian community with. I need someone to live with. I need someone who feels the way I do. I need someone to get me. I need someone...who in this moment wants the same things I do. Freedom. Escape.

I am seeing everything through motion right now. I want to express everything through motion...the need to physically show how I am feeling. And I'm not talking about sex...I'm not that cliche. Sex is something that I'm getting tired of all together...emotional connection is something I am missing. Probably because I found so much of it this summer. It's the same with drugs. I used to feel that they made my vision clearer...but now they just seem to cloud it...which makes me feel like maybe I'm worse off now than I was before.

I think that the strangest part of all this is that it isn't depression...it's just confusion. I think depression usually comes from a place of certainty whether we are willing to admit that or not.

Well, I'm going to go and dance.

The picture is of myself and Jordan at grad. Much love to him, me makes my heart feel a bit lighter. Friends for such a long time.

As always there will be more later...

this comic makes the world a better place...

2006-12-20T18:40:00.000-08:00

This reminds me of the video I made...I'm so glad other people think like me...I am NOT alone!

soooo tired

2006-12-03T17:26:00.000-08:00

and unneccesarily so...it's way to much work cleaning my room...but i really dont want it to be messy anymore...i figure well i have the time i should just do it...but man...it is seriously tiring me out...i think i shall finish tomorrow...

The Thing That I Am Doing

2006-12-02T18:08:00.000-08:00

I am sitting here talking to Deep Blue.

The minutes are flashing by my eyes: 1:35:31

Time goes by...so slowly...tickticktock...

When I was 15, I should not have been doing the things I was doing.

Chris is awesome! I heart him times 3.

I must end this soon...now...before it is too late...

...

....

.....

Fin.

The Truth Shall Set Me Free?

2006-11-16T17:52:00.000-08:00

So I just read a pretty awesome blog post on Michelle's blog...and I'm going to make my own copy of it here because I made me think and I really respect her for doing it.

These are 15 honest statements about myself:

1) I hurt people...way more often then I like to admit.
2) I lie...and not just to other people, to myself as well (this one is SO hard for me to admit).
3) Because I hurt people I'm afraid to let anyone REALLY know me.
4) I am WAY to picky when it comes to guys.
5) I dont take enough of the blame when I deserve it.
6) I can be way to sensitive.
7) I say hurtful things without thinking of the effects that they will have.
8) I like Hilary Duff...I really, really do.
9) I talk to the firewood as I'm bringing it in the house.
10) I have never actually tried to stop biting my nails.
11) I used to enjoy using people because I love feeling that I have power.
12) I try and make people like me.
13) I make wrong judgements.
14) I live in a fantasy world.
15) I can lose myself very easily.

Now I am going to make 15 true statements about some people in my life, in no particular order...

Eric) You are more than a friend, you are my family. I honestly do not believe that I would still be alive today without you. I am saddened that our time together is coming to and end but I truly believe that we will be friends for life. I love you oh so very much!

Ali) You and I have such a wonderful friendship...I can't even begin to explain how much it has meant to me. It's hard to find a friendship like ours in high school...I love that we dont have the same friends or the same interests or goals and yet, it works so well. Thanks for being the Betty to my Al. AND our blog SO rocks!

Amanda) You're 2 hours older than me and half an inch taller than me. You're forgetful and thoughtful and artistic and I completely love you. You changed me and my life more than I think you will ever know. You made an unbearable year bearable. You gave me friendship and a fresh start. You are one of those people who I instantly liked. Thanks for all the friends you left me here with. I miss you and I hope your life is going amazing. Here's to you, you wonderful girl, you are truly a beautiful person!

Afshin) Who would have thought that you and I would become so close? You know that I tell you more than I tell anyone. We seem to be very good at creating amazing moments and you have AWESOME taste in music. You havn't drowned yet...

Omid) I less than three you. You give me sweet dreams. What can I say? You are one of my fave. people on the planet. Somehow we just connect. You always tell me how it is and I respect that so much. Dont ever take crap from anyone...you are so awesome just the way you are!

Jai) Kid, you and I have some kinda crazy connection! The second I touched your hand I knew we would be friends. Your music is beautiful, as are you. Thank you for the wonderful conversations.

Danny) I cant believe we've never met! 3 weeks! You make me laugh more than anyone ever has. I am blown away by your sweetness and straight forwardness. You know how I feel about your music.

Chris) So we've finally met...and it was well worth the wait. You get me in such an awesome way. So glad you decided to come online and tell me Rick was a loser...lol. What a great way to meet. Oh, and once again...you have the prettiest eyes! Cant wait to see you again!

Rick) In the beginning your conversation blew me away...especially considering that I only knew you as Spencer's friend who did the sexy tango fight scene in tight jeans and cowboy boots. As we got closer I began to love the poems and storys as well as all the times you'd come on webcam and look totally different. I admire so much how direct you are and they way that you say how you feel. You're my handsome prince...thanks for being there whenever I need to talk or whenever I need to be stupid. :) <3 Oh, and your blog rocks my socks...thanks for the inspiration!

Heather) Chained at the hip! Enemies and then friends. Thank you for your unwavering opinions and unjudgemental listening. I love you girl!

Kindra) Anyone that can tell with one look what I'm up to, has earned my respect. We are LOVE SHACK PIRATES and I love it.

Jared) Thank you for the beautiful conversations, the wonderful insights, and the freaking awesome hugs! It means a lot to me.

Bendle) The first time I met you I knew I had to talk to you again. We spent only a few hours together but they were truly awesome. You are a beautiful, wonderful person and I honor you for that.

Nabil) For some reason, I dont regret any of it. You have been the one for me. You drive me absolutely completely insane but I love you and I think I probably always will. No one else understands. You changed me in so many ways and I am so glad we got to grow up together like that. I think that sometimes we play down our realtionship but in my heart I know we had something real. I love you sweet boy. Dont lose your wonderful sensitivity. I am so glad you shared 14 months of your life with me.

Michelle) Honey, you were always someone that I have had respect for because you just keep going no matter what. And in the end you didn't take my crap anymore. I think out of everyone you understand my feelings towards the auditorium the most. I am so glad we were in the same AG and I am so glad that we are still friends. I love you pretty girl!

I love the world...it really is true. We are all amazing!

Peace,
Courts

2006-11-07T11:36:00.000-08:00

Stolen from Grood...cuz i love it...but you know that: http://www.grood.com/

"My roommate and I will sometimes talk online while we’re both at home at our apartment. I mean, we won’t have conversations or anything. We’re dorks but we’re not, you know, dork dorks. Like he’ll find an interesting link and he’ll send it my way. Well, the other day he sent me a link and I checked it out and made a comment back to him. He must have though my comment was hilarious because he responded with LOL.
The thing is he was maybe 15 to 20 feet away from me and I definitely did not hear him LOL. I could see him. His door was open. He didn’t LOL. He didn’t ROFL. He didn’t LMAO. He didn’t do any other gay acronym that would denote audible laughter. The man is a lying son of a bitch. He is an LSOB."

i officially LOVE this guy!

2006-08-23T22:12:00.000-07:00

http://www.grood.com/2006/08/22/review-snakes-on-a-plane/

Calm Gone

2006-08-19T01:23:00.000-07:00

does it ever end--
this sea of insanity?
not that I’m complaining.,
nor protesting.
simply wondering…
where has the calm gone?

sometimes a high is better
when it hits you for no reason.
no drug works better
than good old fashioned
bliss.

if all the stars fell down
maybe we’d have cause
for worry.
but from where I lay
they seem to stay
the same.
not boring
just comfortable.

does it ever end?
everything keeps moving.
but feeling
everything and nothing
all at once
tends to make one
dizzy.
please don’t fall.

sometimes
if you let it go
you might just create
some beautiful music.
feedback can sound better
than the notes that you’ve
envisioned.
My advice?
Be like a tidal wave.

if I keep on
keeping on
the way that I’ve been doing,
things may stay the same.
I guess I’d rather
let you hurt me
than hurt you.
ignorance?
no…
bliss.

does it ever end--
all this uncontrolled
uncertainty?
perhaps you should take this
peace
of my heart.
you seem to need it more than I.
just don’t break it,
my wish is not to be
the eye of the storm.

sometimes life
just isn’t vast enough for you
and sometimes it’s too small.
the beautiful naivety
that I see in his eyes
tells me that for him…
…the world fits perfectly.

if I kiss you goodbye
will you really go away?
if I sing a lullaby
will you catch some sleep?
intentions don’t create
situations.
under this same sky
we are united--
connected by hearts
instead of hands.
feel this sand
fall across your soul.
it is the universe of our past…
watch how easily it
blows away.

does it ever end?
not that I’m complaining,
simply wondering…
where has the calm gone?

Pussycats, Destiny, and George

2006-08-04T00:45:00.000-07:00

Ok...this is a slight rant.

Dont you think that the Pussycat Dolls of today is just a catfight (no pun intended) waiting to happen?
I mean, you take a bunch of semi-famous, kinda-talented, sorta-trashy, super hot girls and put them in a group and then decide that one of them is going to be the "main" girl who gets all the best singing parts, is in the middle of all the videos, and is the center of attention.
Come on...tell me that those girls aren't always fighting...it's even worse than Destiny's Child when they were playing the "survivor" game and voting everyone out of the group.
The best part about that was when they actually released a song called survivor. Oh the little ironys of life.
Anyways, I just figured maybe you'd appreciate that...I'm going to go keep listening to George Michael...Faith is ridiculously catchy (songs with clapping are awesome) ...and I figure since it's pride week I shall listen to as much George and Elton as I want.

Oh, before I go I shall tell you a little Elton story that I have:
The first Elton song that I actually awknowledged as an Elton song was Dont Go Breaking My Heart. I saw it on Much Pop Up Video. Anyways, one of the pop ups said "What does Elton John and tennis have in common?" and the answer was "Fuzzy green balls." So that is my first real Elton memory. Some things are just worth remembering.

I'm Walking On Broken Glass And I'm HAPPY About It!

2006-07-13T00:17:00.000-07:00

I just have to say that I love Annie Lennox for singing "I'm walking on broken glass" like she's really enjoying it. It makes the whole song just wonderful to listen to. So thank you, Annie Lennox, thank you.

P.A.R.T.Y?Y?Y?

2006-07-09T14:32:00.000-07:00

So I went to a party last night. This post will be all the stupid things that I can remember about it. So it may not make much sense.

August 3rd, 2011, at 4:20PM a Tsunami that will destroy the human race will appear and we will be surfing it along with whales, cows, octopus, and octagons.

We know what we're talking about.

We've known Duncan his whole life.

Duncan is good at blowing.

Duncan has saved everyone's lives.

Josh gets stuck in trees often.

Milk is a good way to put out a fire.

Give it air.

Dont give CPR to someone who is still breathing.

Courteney and Duncan go together.

Duncan is a Scottish, French, and Dutch name.

"That's not even, like, legal!" "It is in Amsterdam!"

"I'll f-ing kill you! Give me my Gatorade...*into gatorade bottle* 'Hello? Hi...no...I'll kill them all!' I'm talking to my contacts!"

We are all wonderful singers.

Traintracks are actually really fun to walk on.

James...or Jason...or James...walked from Nanaimo...It's a good thing we found him.

"Hey, why'd it go quiet?" "We sparked a joint!" "Ohhhhh."

Courteney deserves a hug for not drinking.

That seat was MEANT to be firewood.

Only YOU can prevent forest fires...unless you've all be drinking...then you're screwed.

Hitting people repeatedly may be wrong...but it sure is funny.

"I need a Prime Time!" "Go Away!" "I need a pop can!" "GO AWAY!"

Josh would make a really bad news reporter.

....yeah...there was alot more...but that's all I can remember right now...this is my way of making a record of it...
Party on Wayne. Party on Garth.

All I Wanna Do Is Turn Around

2006-07-08T01:24:00.000-07:00

love is a many splended thing.

Why Couples Shouldn't Be In Bands Together...

2006-07-06T23:57:00.000-07:00

I believe this proves my point.

Thank You Questionable Content...Thank You SO Very Much.

Those Quacks!

2006-07-06T12:47:00.000-07:00

I have nothing more to say.

(Wow, that's a first.)

There Be Magic Here

2006-07-05T17:40:00.000-07:00

I just thought my blog could use some more magic.

So I dreamt this up.

http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/35852988/

For sources and full view, click the link.

Garage Sale

2006-07-04T18:32:00.000-07:00

I really wanted to post something brilliant and witty.

But I'm not really in a brilliant and witty mood today.

So this is some old brilliance and wittyness from the mind of Courteney.

Dreams DO Come True!

2006-07-04T00:24:00.000-07:00

So about 2 years ago, Nick had a dream he was at my house.
At the time we weren't great friends, we hung out a lot but we didn't really know each other.
The thing about his dream was...he'd never been to my house.
So, we've started hanging out a lot lately and about a month ago he tells me about his dream.
From the way he described my house I was like "You've really never been there?"
So tonight he drives me home.
And he is compeltely shocked that it is the same house from his dream.
He had a dream about my house and he has never even been here.
I'm amazed. It made my night.
Nick, I love you man.

Oh, btw...some Old Dutch chip bags say "Flavour Guaranteed" on the front...umm hello? I obviously want the ones WITHOUT flavour!!!

Six Inches of Bleeding Broken Death In Summer's Agony of Strife

2006-07-02T20:48:00.000-07:00

So I have partied this week, and partied, and partied...it's been quite excellent actually.

I would so be a bass player in a band with the name Six Inches of Bleeding Broken Death In Summer's Agony of Strife...just for the pure stupidity of it.

Hello. Salut.

Yeah, goodbye.

The Sickest Thing Ever?

2006-06-28T00:34:00.000-07:00

The lovely image above is what comes up in a google image search if you type "the sickest thing ever".

The following text is what comes up on a regular google search: When I opened my eyes, I saw Spock, standing at Vorik's head, coming into his mouth as my mother stood pressed behind him, pinching his nipples.

Yeah...I find it hillarious...so I thought I would share that.

Also...filthy=feel fee

Laughter...LAUGHTER I SAY!

2006-06-26T18:19:00.000-07:00

This was a pretty good weekend. It just felt generally nice to be free. I did all the normal things: hung with old friends, walked waaaaay to much, hit on jugglers at the beach, met my best friend's kinda boyfriend, slept in my bed with someone i just met...pretty typical.

Life's A Beach

2006-06-19T07:17:00.000-07:00

First off, I am both sad and glad to announce that I have completed my last show with Whalebone Theatre.
I cried for about an hour after it was done.
The cast party was one of the best ever though.
Secondly, I had an excellent weekend.
Lots of late nights, fires, beaches, and good company.
Lastly, I saw Tokyo Drift on Sunday and it rocked.
I am such a sucker for fast car movies...I always have been.
I am thinking I need to see Kill Bill 1&2 again, just because they are awesome.
I got three new CD's, some books, a shirt, a wallet, and a ring.
Spending money is FUN!
Thats All For Now Folks,

Courts

...wounds...

2006-06-17T16:24:00.000-07:00

So the address for my blog is saltinthosewounds.
That is a line from a poem I wrote, I figured maybe I should post it for those of you who have not read it. The poem is called Damn You.
I love that I wrote a poem with this title and made it almost completely serious.
The first stanza was inspired by Lemon Demon and the wonderful video Word Disassociation: http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/audio/word
This poem is NOT based on actual events, I dont know how I thought this up.

I turn around and I am free
To stare at
Your never
Undressing, never
Unsure, never quite
Ugly sneer.
I wonder if you Like it
Or if it
Likes you.

As I stare
Your way
I wonder why
You make me so angry
And why that feels so good.
Of course,
My anger is never anything
Less than
Exquisite.

Somehow I always manage
To turn away before
My head falls along with my heart.
You’re are
Completely,
Willingly,
Deceiving.
Don’t you understand
I’ve been living in hell?
You could be too
…it is surprisingly easy
To arrange.

Damning you
Should have been hard
But it turns out you did not
Need my assistance.
Everyone has their secrets.
Damn you
Throwing away a beautiful soul
So willingly for a
Handsome prince.

Call upon your
Guardian angel
And please tell him
ThanksFrom me.
I was saved as he
Damned you.
Both in
One foul…touch…suck?
Killing two birds with one stone
…Has never been such fun.

So come and take me!
What’s the matter baby?
Your soul is fucked anyways
Let me rub some…
…Salt
In those wounds.

My finger tips are burnt
Too many matches left
Alight to long.
Your eyes are red
Too many nights left
Alone, hating who you are.
Now tell me honey,
Who’s more messed up?
I’ve never been one
To deny
What I am.

I don’t need
To know
Who you are.
You already hate you
Why add me to the list?
Just get this over with
So I can remember that
I’ve forgotten your name.

Don’t kiss me
Just stick your tongue
Down my throat.
I’ll call it
Harassment. And
We’ll call it
A day.

Again.

The End?

2006-06-15T07:22:00.000-07:00

So yeah, I had my last opening night with Whalebbone Theatre last night.
It was good and bad and it helped me realize how much I've grown.
I got some very bad news after the show but I'm trying to focus on the good things.
Jamie is actually going to be a very good stage manager next year...of course he's also an awesome actor...it's going to be a really good year next year for Whalebone...probably because they get rid of all of us.
Oh, I'm including a picture that I love...the barbed wire is %100 real and not blunted at all.
It was taken by Doomsday Dawn on Deviant Art.

FREEDOM!

2006-06-12T21:09:00.000-07:00

You had the right idea man, freedom.

I hope you got it, you deserve it.

RIP

Alberta John

Where Are You Mind?

2006-06-12T19:21:00.000-07:00

I am feeling lost.
Not lost as in "I dont know where I am",
lost as in I feel like my sould might be drifting away.
Where Are You Mind?
Thats something I always say as a joke but today when I said it I thought of a song that I love called Expiration Notice and one of the lines is "where is my mind?"
So I'm going to ask, seriously for once, Where Are You Mind? Where is my mind?
I honestly dont know right now.
This is odd, I've never felt quite like this before.
I thought I had out felt myself and everything was going to stay neutral now...
At least I know I'm alive...feeling=alive.
And alive is a good way to be.

Smart Cars...Pfff.

2006-06-12T07:20:00.000-07:00

Seriously I think the best way to advertise Smart Cars is to say:
"If you get hit by a semi truck you'll be dust in about 2.5 seconds...you wont feel a thing. Buy Smart."
I mean honestly, those things just dont stand a chance, they look like those bike tents...you know the things that parents stick their kids in behind their bikes.
Dont even get me started on those things...

The Previous

2006-06-11T23:46:00.000-07:00

My previous post on this blog rocks the world right off orbit...except then we'd all be dead...
Who figured that out anyways?
And I mean really...who cares...so not important...if something is going to knock the earth off of it's orbit there really isn't going to be alot we can do about it...it's not like we're living in the movie armageddon.
So who the hell wasted all their brain power figuring that out?...and they could be wrong because we have no REAL way of knowing the truth.
And why the hell are we wasting all this money on trying to get into space? So we have somewhere to go when we fuck up the earth enough?
oh wait...i have a brilliant idea. LETS STOP FUCKING UP THE EARTH!
*gasp* it could never work.
Instead of putting all this money into the space program lets FEED HUNGRY CHILDREN!!! ok...where was I? Oh yeah, the previous blog entry rules.

Time Is On My Side

2006-06-10T20:32:00.000-07:00

AHHHHH! I'm a demon! *touches you* AHHHHH! You're a demon!

In The Beginning

2006-06-06T21:53:00.000-07:00

So yeah, starting a new blog.
I hated the other one and never posted on it.
This will be a place for my thoughts, feelings, and above all, my rants.
The insanity will not end.
More later people.
Peace.